I was starting a private painting session recently. There I stood at the easel brush in hand afraid to make the first mark. I had just posted an entry about not being afraid to fail. My model had to give me the pep talk. "What are you afraid of? There's nothing at risk here."
|Nude, oil on canvas, 6" X 6", 2013|
Every time you face a blank canvas it is in some fundamental way your first time. You can bring a lifetime of knowledge and skill to the moment but the canvas doesn't care. This time is not like any other. You have to figure it out anew in real time. This revaluation is either depressing or exhilarating. I'm not sure which.